Anonymous asked: Keep 'em coming ~~ Pocahontas, Flounder, & Aladdin ~~
Hello, you. Warning: I’m wordy today.
Pocahontas: Something new you taught someone
This one is difficult! I think I’ve impacted my kids; above and beyond English, but that’s probably not what this question is driving at. I imagine this is the sort of thing we never really know ourselves. What we take away from each other in a lifetime of rubbing shoulders and making connections isn’t quantified as much as it should be probably. So I don’t know! I hope I’ve left some kind of positive impression somewhere.
Also I teach all my kids how to fake a broken nose.
Flounder: Something that surprised you and frightened you
Honest to God: the first time I saw a willy in real life.
Aladdin: A sacrifice you made for someone
When I was just a little Himchi I got the idea that nobility was very important. I was unnecessarily noble in everything I did; even when the situation didn’t call for it. So I spent a great part of my youth (continuing into my 20s, maybe even now~) being “noble” and making sacrifices (in boys, jobs, performing and the day to day stuff too… so much).
Then I started realising that this wasn’t how the world worked. There wasn’t a lot of payback. Many people just sort of did things for themselves; acted without regard for anyone else. At first I thought it was malice, then with time I saw it was just a completely different mode of thinking- a different philosophy of self.
So resentment bled into me like a stain. On the one hand, I understood that ‘sacrifice’ wasn’t always ‘good’ because it wasn’t a tit for tat affair. On the other, I couldn’t stop: I’d formed a habit. Moreover, in situations where I was selfish and needed to be, I felt guilty and stuck my head in the sand, thus exacerbating things (see the Dory entry).
I think only now in my late 20s I’m learning to be more selfish. It’s scary- at times I’m frightened that my contribution to the ‘group’ or ‘friend’ is precisely the thing I’m trying to refine.
Bloop! Peachesofapathy awaits. Thanks anon~